Ladies thanks to all of you for your advice. Being able to talk about this here and knowing that I am not alone makes a difference.
Reading your posts about things I have tried and haven't tried made me realize that there isn't a golden section, but perhaps I need a mix of different approaches to alternate in my situation when one of them doesn't work at a certain time and get back to it again later.
Colette, thanks for your 'feng shui' type of viewpoint. I tried letting things flow in the past and it did help at certain times. It is useful to have a difference of perspectives, as collectively it brings balance. I hope you don't give up on your love for this forum just yet
Mirror, thank you. I will look up Bowlby's theory!
Lady Lust, I tried a brute approach and brought nothing but misery but I didn't do it gracefully. I agree that an element of selfishness is vital to pull through it.
Sweetmilf, thank you. I agree, this is why people say 'I'm crazy for you'! I 'love' a good cynicism but I hope that doesn't make me insane and cynicism insane
I think sanity and insanity are two sides of the same coin and it depends on the point of view. In our line of work love can be a biologically programmed insanity, especially when it is unrequited. But there are lots of examples of insane things in the world that when we look at them differently and out of the box they have been essential elements of progress and evolution.
Biblio/Ladyofthemansion/Diversity, thank you. It is always good to be reminded that time is a great healer. Things will be ok.
I try to be optimistic thinking that, this experience will hopefully make me stronger and wiser in the long run.
S x